Crazycakes

Last night, Evelyn wanted me to read "I Love You Like Crazycakes", as our bedtime story. This is a simplified (as in the telling of the adoption process is simplified, not the heart of the matter) telling of how a Mother without a daughter goes to China to meet a daughter that hasn't had a mother until they meet. I was very proud of myself because for the first time, I could read it without crying. I will say that it is not my favorite topic at this point in our life, (we are still trying to recoup after a rough patch in the adoption area), but when she asks about China or how we met, I always stop what I am doing and answer her, I will also read the very few China/Adoption books that we have whenever she asks. We have made a change in the family in that direction, if she asks for it, we talk and answer but other than that we don't put it in her face or make a big deal about it. She's just my daughter, end of story.
Except that it really isn't that simple. I mean she did come from China and the day that I met her will stand out in my mind and heart for the rest of my life as the moment when I finally and absolutely became the happiest. So we do make room for China and adoption in our family and our talks, it's just that I want Evelyn to make the choices about how and what type of information she is given.
Today Evelyn is dashing about the house and telling us every few minutes that she loves us like crazycakes and she smiles big and giggles. She knows where she came from, she knows how we met and I think that she is starting to realize how very cool that actually is. BUT I think that she can realize that now because we stopped being the ones to initiate those sorts of talks and such, she has been able to relax and realize that no matter what, she is ours and that will never change.