Bullets-Again

• I really prefer to write out blog entries like stories or updates- sometimes though it is just easy to do this. So I do.
• I haven't wanted to say anything and jinx myself but I think I will say something now. I have spent many years battling my weight. I have made excuse after excuse and put off the work of weight loss for another time. One Monday three weeks ago, I woke up and had had enough. I started walking. Then I started to pay REAL and CLOSE attention to the things that I was eating. I have lost 5 pounds. Not much in the long run, but it is the FIRST FIVE and I am happy.
• Evelyn's face has changed. Just some subtle maturity changes but I can see a difference. I just keep looking at her. She seems so grown up and so beautiful that it takes my breath away. Sometimes I will be looking at her and she will say "What? Mama? Why are you looking at me like that?"
• I tried a new recipe this week. Spice Rubbed Pork Chops- they are well, pork chops that you rub with spices and then grill. We all really loved them and we will have them again as it was very easy and quite good.
• My sister and Brevin were here the past 2 days for a visit. It was so nice having them. Brevin is so very funny- both intentionally and un-intentionally. My favorite part of this visit was when Lissa was struggling to strap Brev into his booster seat in my truck, and she was all hunched over in the back and that truck was as hot as the 9th level of hell and Brev was trying to color on the Magnadoodle and he was flapping it about - it hit Ev and she shoved his arm so the Magnadoodle whacked Melissa on the head- she got mad and tried to stand up but couldn't and then she "accidentally" lost a grip on the seat belt strap and that whacked Brevin on the head, then Ev and I laughed and Brev got mad and started hitting Evelyn and Melissa was just trying to back out of the truck but her feet kept getting tangled in the plastic bag that had Brevin's pee soaked shorts in them and Evelyn was lecturing Brevin on how to behave while getting strapped into a Booster Seat and did he want to be punished?
• I keep noticing Asian boys while out in public. Every time I see one, my heart just aches and I get all nervous feeling and anxious. I think that I want a boy. A son. Bad. Real bad.
• We have a boy's name and a girl's name picked out. Well 2 boy's names and 1 girl's name. The Adoption Petition that we had notarized requested either boy or girl under 18 mos. of age so we had to prepare.
• I haven't had a decent conversation with either of my parents in what feels like weeks and it is starting to make me twitchy. Same goes for Leslie. It seems that we can't get 5 minutes together to just talk.
• Les just finished building a new book shelf for Ev's room. I love it and will post pictures after it's all painted.
• Evelyn is so exhausted that I put her to bed at 8 pm tonight.