Billy Sleeps

More of Bean's Boat Driving

Now you understand that track line-right?

What happens when.....????

What happens when your child can reach the Desitin and knows this but has been saving that little bit of trivia for when you are finally on the phone with your Sister and don't realize that she (said child) has been in the bathroom for about 10 minutes with no sounds penetrating your brain????? This is what happens....at some point she had also taken her pink britches off because she was wearing what I shall call Desitin Panties .

Video of Bean at the Helm

Day 2 of visiting

I thought that I would write about the second day that we spent with Dan and Cheri. Part of why Dan and Cheri are good company for us is that they are totally down with slower starts to the day's activities a (and they are not afraid of a nap either!) , so we spent the a.m. at the house futzing about. Towards the afternoon we set out for the beach and a bit of kite flying. It was cold a windy out there but clear and beautiful as well. We saw several of the Brown Pelicans and Dan and Cheri took a walk along the beach. After some time on the shore, Les arranged for us all to go over to the Coast Guard station and have a boat ride. This was so much fun! It's been awhile since I was on a boat and this was Ev's first trip. She was so excited to finally get a ride on her Papa's boat, she was wiggly and talkative before hand but as we got onto the boats, she quieted down and started taking it all in. I think that she really loved getting to see her Papa in action. After awhile Les slowed the boat and took Ev on his lap so she could drive the boat for a bit, she took this very seriously and kept trying to fiddle with the GPS and talk on the radio like the Coastie's do. We were out on the water for a beautiful sunset- cold but pretty. Then we came ashore for a seafood dinner. I got a quick picture of Ev's track line- looks like spaghetti.

We had such a nice weekend with Dan and Cheri. Thanks you two for coming to see us. Evelyn misses you both, and actually Billy spent some time wandering around trying to figure out where you had gone as well. Come back anytime, wherever we are, whenever you can.

I would also like to say that i have no idea why the screen with my pic slideshow is now doing the weird "subscribe to my photos thing" - I didn't do that. sigh. I will now have to find a different way to post pictures as I don't like that one bit.

A Visit with friends

Our friends Dan and Cheri came this past weekend to spend some time with us. Dan has been Leslie's friend since they were in Boy Scouts together and he has been my friend from the minute I was Les' woman. This is the first time that we met Cheri, she is Dan's fiance and it just seems like she has been our friend forever as well. We had a great weekend.

We met them at the airport on Fri and on the way home we ate at a place called Owen's- great food and conversation. They got a real dose of Evelyn in the car though- you know, talk, talk, talk. Ev took to Cheri right away, by the time we were home, they were fast friends. The next day, we headed out to Hatteras Lighthouse to look around, Evelyn wanted to be carried by Cheri and Cheri obliged. For those of you that know Ev, this is a huge thing, it usually takes her much longer to warm up to people. She kept calling Dan and Cheri her friends and wanted to know where they were at all times.

Some deep emotions

Sometimes our minds work in funny ways. Here I am zooming thru my life and loving every minute of it. No thoughts of infertility, no desire for a biological child, because , Heaven knows, I love my little girl with every fiber in my being and being HER Mom is what I was meant for. Seriously- once we were on the path to Evelyn, my heart just opened wide for her and the pain of infertility was gone and I have not looked back- not ever. And I'm not now. It just seems that for some strange reason, for about 4 nights in a row, I have been having pregnancy dreams. It's so strange- I have no desire to be pregnant-none. My Evelyn came from China and China is the way that my next child will come, I love it. What I can not for the life of me understand, is why , oh why is my subconscious doing this?
I have the dreams and wake up and for a brief few seconds I am thrown into an absolute darkness of grief and longing, similar to what I call " the good old days of zero percent chance". Then I hear this little sleepy voice coming over the monitor- "Mama I up here waiting for you" and my heart explodes into joy and I'm like "oh yeah" and I go thru the day, never longing for a biological child, just maybe another spicy, bossy, dark haired beauty from a far away land. I know that my mind is working on things. Maybe since we are now finally, really settling into family life, my guts are working out some deep unexpressed stuff that got pushed aside when Ev came along like gang busters. For now I will allow myself to feel those brief moments of pain , I know that they will pass. I know that there is another child out there for me, I am already starting to worry over her and wonder- maybe these dreams are linked up with that. In reality though I should be dreaming of papers and copies and stamps and files.....don't ya think?