In No Particular Order

These are the things on my mind today:

• Insurance issues are huge and can eat up every ounce of you.
• I love my cat. It's weird how much I love this strange animal.
• My daughter is truly the single best person that I have ever known but, she can still drive me ape #%&* in 5 seconds flat if she has the mind to.
• I can not tolerate whining. My son whines. 
• I am trying not to pray for specific things but today I am fervently praying for one very specific thing.
• That thing I am praying for is Liam. I am worried that I see a fistula in his mouth and I just don't want this little boy to have any complication, let alone one that will mean another surgery 9 months down the road. So I am praying for healing and a small palate miracle.
• After palate repair, when you can't brush their teeth, when everything is healing, these kids get some pretty serious dragon breath kicking.
• The bad breath doesn't stop me from kissing him about 600 times a day.
• Adoption may be hard and you may find yourself in a place that you don't like but, time marches on and things begin to fall into place and make sense. You find a new rhythm, you allow for changes, you "become".
• One good day does not mean that you are in the clear. It means that you had a good day. Eventually the good days will begin to outnumber the bad ones.
• I need to cut myself some serious slack and stop expecting perfection and grace when I just need to survive sometimes.
• I do not love my kids unequally, I know one better than I know the other one. 
• After nearly 17 years of marriage I am still hopelessly and madly in love with Leslie. 
• Taking your child to the hospital is a hellish experience and you leave shattered and bruised and sick at your stomach.
• Just because someone's badge says "R.N." it doesn't mean that they know what they are doing.
• The thing you will regret most is not speaking up and fighting for your kid. Not saying "no" when your gut says that you should.
• The sight of two kids running and playing in those soft pj's with feet is the cutest thing in the world.
• I can not even begin to imagine life without Liam here with us. 
• I seriously need to stop buying those Reese PB pumpkins, I eat them for breakfast and lunch and then wonder why I am grumpy around 3 pm. But they are sooooo good.