We are a military family and we have a life that is fraught with separations and schools and Temporary Assignments. We are also an adoptive family and we get to do that long, winding meander to our children.
So waiting is what we do.
Some days I am good at it and some days I am not.
I thought that at this point- I wouldn't be very good at it.
I am doing ok which surprises me.
Maybe it's because we have so many things left to do between now and travel?
Maybe it's because I am just plum exhausted and have left the worrying and details to God?
Maybe it's because I have partially shut down and I am not letting anything get too close or be too real?
I can tell you that it's NOT because I am not frantic to get to him. It's not that my heart does not long to be with him with every beat.
We are waiting for TA now. China is the boss.
It's also a funny thing that I don't mind so much waiting on China- it was all of that futzing with THIS country's Immigration that really chapped my hiney.
We are facing a potential 7 week wait until travel right now.
On one hand I think' how will we ever make it?" and then on the other hand my mind goes back to our first test pack two nights ago and I think "well, will 7 weeks be enough time to get this right?"
Either way you cut this pie- we are waiting and there is not a single thing that I can do to speed it up. I can only survive it with Grace.
At times I get this choking vice around my chest and throat. I would be rushing to the Doctor for meds if I hadn't gone through this before. I know what that feeling is. It's my heart longing desperately to have us all together. As it is, I just take a deep breath and swallow and Ev and I drive out for ice cream.
And we wait.
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