Growing Pains

I realize that I have been a bit of a slacker kind of blogger lately. It's just that I stopped slacking in other areas and I find that I am out of time by the time the day winds down. I have also sworn to limit my computer time in an attempt to have more time to play with The Bean. So far though, all I have is more time to paint her bedroom (it looks great by the way- just one more coat of the color and 2 coats on the trim to go) and a bit more time to work on the adoption.

Working on the adoption is a good thing though, even if some play time is sacrificed, I mean- who else is going to wrestle this stuff and make a baby out of it? Me that's who.

Then also with The Bean, she has had some ummm, issues lately. She has been having, and giving us, some growing pains. She has reached a new level of mental and emotional growth but not yet obtained the control to go along with it. This means that we face some very old issues with her origins and at the same time we get a whole bunch of new stuff added in. It's like she's a blasted teenager already! (GAHHHH! The teen years, I can NOT let myself think on those coming days, else I fret and worry and vomit. )

Some of the things that have been happening (in no specific order) are:

• Blatant outlaw-ishness


• Blatant disobedience


• Lackadaisical response to parental requests


• Saying nasty and hurtful things to her cousins (things that make them cry in bewilderment and hurt)


• Acting decidedly ungrateful (and downright nasty) when presents and surprises are given to her


• Also her need to control every eventuality and ALL of the things going on around her are exhausting me. I am just worn out by her need to control.


• The talking. Yes, she talks through it all. (as an example I am sitting here typing while she is holding an out and out discourse/review of the Twilight Princess/Link game. And I am required to respond intelligently. Please do not suggest that I tell her to be quiet, I have to save those requests for when my ears are jelly- also she CAN NOT - NOT talk)

Is she still cute? Yes. Am I still over the moon for her? Absolutely.

She is still, The Bean. She still is sweet and loving (on her terms). She is bright and funny. Basically I am trying to say that even though we are having some hard days, we are still here. Being us. Loving Ev and playing with her. We are trying to help her learn some control of herself and remind her how to be the nice girl that we know she is.

It just doesn't make for interesting blogging.