Friday, April 2, 2010
March 27
You were taken from your family on this day. Your Foster Family, but, did your little heart know the difference? China has moved you into place to get ready for "your adoption process". Huh.
You know nothing about us. You have no real idea what has happened I think. There is just pain and confusion. I mean, I am assuming here. What else could you be feeling?
Here, half way around the world you are loved. Loved completely and beyond measuring. When you land in my arms - that will be the ticket. I will grab onto you and I will NEVER let go. I will never leave. You will never have to face the loss of a parent again.
My heart already knows yours. I have been sick and grieving for days. Since the 27th in fact. Somehow my heart knew what my mind did not. That you were hurting.
Some day I will have you in my arms here at home. We will be outside. I will have myself braced against the weight of you and you will be there, warm and real. The sun will be shining and your sister will be talking away at us, and, just for a second she will quiet down and it will be us, quiet and together. Then the breeze will pick up and ruffle your black hair and I will smell your shampoo. And Papa will smile at us because he will see this moment and know it is the one that I have held in my mind to survive this wait. I will have you and we will be a family.
Forever.
Papa. Mama. Sister. Brother.
Father. Mother. Daughter. Son.
You know nothing about us. You have no real idea what has happened I think. There is just pain and confusion. I mean, I am assuming here. What else could you be feeling?
Here, half way around the world you are loved. Loved completely and beyond measuring. When you land in my arms - that will be the ticket. I will grab onto you and I will NEVER let go. I will never leave. You will never have to face the loss of a parent again.
My heart already knows yours. I have been sick and grieving for days. Since the 27th in fact. Somehow my heart knew what my mind did not. That you were hurting.
Some day I will have you in my arms here at home. We will be outside. I will have myself braced against the weight of you and you will be there, warm and real. The sun will be shining and your sister will be talking away at us, and, just for a second she will quiet down and it will be us, quiet and together. Then the breeze will pick up and ruffle your black hair and I will smell your shampoo. And Papa will smile at us because he will see this moment and know it is the one that I have held in my mind to survive this wait. I will have you and we will be a family.
Forever.
Papa. Mama. Sister. Brother.
Father. Mother. Daughter. Son.
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