Evelyn wanted to look through my jewelry today. This is something that I remember doing with my Mom and I always loved it so, so I will stop everything going on to sit with Evelyn in order to ohhh and ahh over shiny baubles. We worked our way through things, talking and chatting as we went. Then, oh then, we opened the drawer that holds the "special stuff". This is the drawer that holds the pearl necklace that I bought for Evelyn while in China. It is meant to be a gift when she becomes a Young Lady. I have always told her this, she knows this and will usually ask questions about when, when , when. She is allowed to try it on and touch it, it's just not offficially given to her yet. This hasn't been a problem before.
Today however, her little heart broke into a thousand pieces and she cried and cried and pouted and stood right by my jewelry box the whole time with tiny hand that still houses some residual baby fat. She stood there and longed for that necklace. It was quite sad and that was before she fully explained herself.
You see, I always say, when you are old enough that this necklace fits and you are a Young Lady that can take care of things this nice, THEN you can have your necklace. Obviously she translated this into something different. After awhile she said "Mama when I get big to wear that necklace, where will you be?" " I don't want that necklace if that means we are not together"-------apparently in her mind "being old enough" means some alternate life that does not include Mama. I told her that I would always be with her, no matter what and that I loved her more than anything and when I gave her the necklace it would just mean that she was a girl that was a little more grown up. Then I told her fifty more times that I would never leave her. Then I cried. Then she cried more. Then we hugged
.....and went shopping.
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