The home study went well I think. The Social Worker seemed to really like us and the house, that helps ease my mind a bit. However I did say to Leslie over dinner "what if she secretly hates us and will torpedo us in the written report?" Do you see what it's like to be doing this? You get all paranoid and worried. Mostly it's because everything hinges on every other little thing. It's all inter-connected and nerve wracking.
I am in a piss poor mood today though. I found out just how much this process has changed since we went through it for Evelyn. And those aren't changes for the good I'm talking about. It's worse. So much worse. So much more invasive. So much more paper work needed. It would be laughable if it weren't so tragic. I can not even begin to describe the stuff that we need (Special K I know that you know what I'm talking about here). Please excuse my whining for now, it's just the way it is. It's all sucky sucky paperwork that I can whine about all I want but in the end, it all has to be done.
It seems this time that I have to designate someone to take over in case something happens to both Leslie and I. Guardians. Ok , but and that's a big BUT there... the state of Ohio will not allow anyone 55 or older and no unmarried folks. THEN we have to have those Guardians write down personal financial information and have it notarized. WHEEE! Not only does my privacy get invaded, so does my families. Nice.
I know the whys and how comes of this stuff. I understand it on one level. I do. I know what I would ask if I was responsible for placing children. It just feels awful to have to expose yourself and those around you for the faceless approval of others. These are the days when I feel the sting of infertility the most.
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I'm sorry. We had to go through that invasive guardian letter process too, it's not fun. Try to keep your focus on the beautiful face at the end of all of this if you can. And allow yourself a temporary pity party every now and then. ;-) Thanks for visiting my blog, we're fellow Jiangxi Moms!
Oh yeah... that's right... you have to do the I-800a. I heard those really suck. I got lucky and am grandfathered on my I-600a which was bad, too. But those I-800a and the homestudy requirements for it are really bad.
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